Meet with the Oncologist on Tues., wrote Dr. B. my letter a few days ago about wanting my double mascetomy it was longer then I thought it would be, I feel like a weight has been lifted, it is out of my hands now! I have done all I can do, I held my ground, feet firm I will not budge I am letting it go..His office was gracious enough to call me to let ne know he did get the letter and we will discuss it on my next visit in January! The staff there is a class act, I am in the BREAST place..:)
For those that are wondering Yes I did deactivate my FB account..I am not explaining why, it is a personal choice..
This picture, (thanks Bob) is a reflection that I am at peace with everything, and moving forward, I am wearing wigs, having fun being the new Heather, I don't have to wait for anything to change what I want to TODAY..I am a woman, who has the cards in my hand, and discarding the crappy ones, keeping the ones I need to close in my sight, playing the ones that I can, leaving the others to the powers that be..I have to be FREE to live, plan for the future, leave the past behind, live lightly,love deeply, laugh loudly, be crazy, look at these past few months as an amazing experience that is soley mine..This is MY RIDE..no one can take away the feelings, laugher, the GREAT INSANITY but most of all the slow breaking out of the cocoon the old shell of me, looking forward to entering the world as the beautiful butterfly that most will never experience..I am grateful to have learned the lesson, and not afraid to be ME! That is where the true FREEDOM comes in..
"I am the caterpiller that soon will be a butterfly, free from the confining cocoon of cancer" HB 11-10
Here is the song for the week: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qz2TSjn45cA
Heather, I received your card in the mail today! This is Cynthia (Steve, Tyler, Austin, Kaiden and Olivia) You are so awesome!!! I'm really excited to read your blogs and I am so glad we crossed paths!!!! I know I just read that you deactivated your account on facebook, but if you ever get another one, feel free to add me! www.facebook.com/cynarmstrong OR you can always email me if you ever wanna chat! cynarmstrong@ymail.com. I am an army wife and my hubby is about to deploy, so maybe we can keep each other company when we get bored :D
ReplyDeleteHeather I love this picture is so peaceful and beautiful!! i love reading your post you are an amazing woman, you just help me keep going. I love you always.
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