The 10th treatment is here been up since 4:30 am nesting so to speak, cleaned everything in site..Not sure why most likely is that I am have feeling like crap the last few days and cannot rest in a dirty house..My girls have been so helpful though but there is just some satisfaction in doing it yourself. They do the laundry, dishes, cook me dinner..I love you my precious girl's you are the BEST!! Again you are the BEST medicine in the WORLD Thank YOU!!
Cannot wait for my chemo break and to get out and start dancing again..I miss being out with the crowd, have to be good and stay in just a few more weeks, it will be worth it..I hate feeling so isolated..So it is the ice baths for the hands, need to get my "Bag Balm" Yes udder cream for the hands and feet, doc recommend, farmer tested..LOL Off till surgery at the end of January..then off for a bit longer to heal, Herceptin every 3 weeks instead of every week. Until September 2011, But no more TAXOL!! YEAHHHHHH!! I am also gonna start another blog.Not sure what about yet, know coming to the end of anything is hard, I just had no idea how hard this was gonna be..(HOW WOULD I?) And it just SUCKS!! I feel like Jim Carrey in the movie "Bruce Almighty" Where are you God? I pray and I pray and I pray..Please what is it you are trying to teach me????
I know God has helped me with the strength to get up everyday, go to work, take care of my girls the best I can but where is the lesson?? But I feel so weak, I cannot even make it off the couch today.. I just want to inspire and empower others like me How can I do that when I can't even inspire myself these days? ..Here is a song for the week from one of my fav groups Breaking Benjamin http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=breaking+benjamin+give+me+a+sign+official+video&aq=3
Hope you are doing ok. Been thinking about you!
ReplyDeleteHey, yea I am fine..had treatment today..will blog later or tomm. How are you?
ReplyDeleteJust read your blog sweetheart, very well written and they are my setiments also "Cancer can kiss my ass" too. Especially when it tried to hurt my one and only precious daughter! I love you my sweetheart more than you'll ever know. I thank Jehovah every day for his blessings upon us all and especially for you my daughter.
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