3 Days until I board the Reconstruction RollerCoaster!!!

Happy Sunday Everyone!! Here we are at recounstruction already..It has been a year and 4 months since this crazy cancer rollercoaster started; On Wed. Nov 2nd I will be undergoing surgery I am nervous, excited to show cancer that I am at the top of the coaster shouting "HAHAHAHHAHAHA you may have taken my breasts, now I am getting them back and I have allowed this journey to make me sooooooooooo much better, you may have pushed me down but I am standing tall"

What I am learning is that some people do not understand why I have to have this type of surgery I have included a video on why and ~~IT IS VERY GRAPHIC SHOWING THE WHOLE SURGERY FROM START TO FINISH SO IF YOU DO NOT LIKE THAT SORT OF THING DO NOT WATCH IT~~~~~I WARNED YOU!!!

The reason for this type of surgery is duing a mascetomy the surgeon takes everything on my right side the new my chest wall is GONE! It looks like my breasts were erased from my body..very surreal..IT is FLAT I cane feel my breast bone also radation killed the blood supply so the pedicule flap has its own blood supply which will keep my new breast alive. On the left side there is still the wall there because that side did not have cancer I wanted it gone because I am too young and did not want to take the risk no matter how small..There is enough tissue there to use a tissue expander which stretches the skin to one size larger then what I want, it is filled with saline once every 2 weeks and then will be replaced with a silicone implant. In Aug 2012 I will be able to have my nipples replaced..And then the journey will be over..Of course I will have to be monitered for the rest of my life..Hey that is ok  with me, every doc visit will be few and farther, each one means I am still ALIVE!!!

http://youtu.be/xcew3ycbG50?t=5s

Heather's "Haunted"Hooter update (Hey I am not using this line next year, FOR SURE scroll to the bottom of the page to see my costume)

My boob IS haunted and since it is almost Halloween today was a good day for my eyelashes start disappering, I have some but they are broken and sparse, I could do a great commerical of what mascara NOT TO BUY! So, bought some fake eyelashes to wear with my GI Jane coustume..Cannot wait to put those high miltary boots on, (wonder if they are steel toed so I can kick a wall or something.

The roller coaster was backwards this time, slept like a baby after treatment and was out pretty much all night, today the "roids" are taking over which is probably a good thing since I woke up this morning and was bit my a damn fire ant on my big toe, WTF is that about!! It is fine had benadryl with my treatment so I am sure that helped..

Already have one thing trying to kill me I don't need the help you lil creepy bastards..(For those of you that do not know I am highly allergic to fire ants) Rushed to the ER a few years ago for anaphylaxis (the start of it anyway, had hives all over my body was not pretty my face looked like Will Smith in that movie where he eats the shell fish) felt good to squash them into nothing..

Doctor update is went to the surgeon on Thursday, masectomy (with removal of lymph nodes not sure which ones yet) is in order for the right side, trying hard to convience him to do a double, he does not like taking a "healthy" breast (I have a surgeon with ethics which I respect his view and understand it) My view is since my right side has a lymph node in an "odd" spot (I was made that way) most lymph nodes are toward the axillary I have one that is full of cancer under my nipple, so since I was made "werid" I am feeling that the other breast maybe the same. (Now you have medical proof I am WERID) :))

I know no one knows if this breast will ever get cancer, but why should I have to worry all the time?? He is more concerned of the cancer coming back somewhere else well (in the deadly way) I think a fire ant will take me before this ever could!! that we cannot help if it does it does, I am not living like that..I just dont want to feel my breast every day and have the paranoia of it..I will lose pices of me to gain the PEACE in my mind.. I will write him a letter closer to surgery which will most likely take place the end of January..He will do what I want he just needs to know that I am 100% sure..I am, I am..I have talked to other women that do not regret in, I will just get brand new ones (eventually)..(smaller scale this time) It will happen just have to make it clear..

Six more weeks of chemo then I will be done for over a month to heal and get my strength back should be around December 10th. So I will be OFF the Chemo Roller coaster for the holiday's :)))) Great present..

Here is a great song that shows how I really feel..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MjwFe6okyUw

Have a happy and safe Holloween..Leave a comment and let me know what you are gonna be..:) If ya click on the fish you can feed them, it is cool :)